Sunday, December 31, 2006

End of Year Review part 2

Dear All,

Its new years eve, the biggest party night of the year, and i will be going out in a few hours but not too party, as i dont really go out anymore, no im going to meet my friends for a civilised meal, and just to hang out and chat and chill out, and to be honest i prefer it alot more! It could be because I have Shamina, and so I dont have that need to go out, or the fact I dont listen to much music anymore, or no where near as much as I used to, however its jus not for me anymore.

Well in the last posts i wrote about the first 7 months of the year, the pre-blog days, i will give a very brief overview of the remaining months as you can read my past blogs for more information.


Aug 06- Witnessed me enter my first communist state on my own(i had previously been in russia when very young!) It was a inspiring experience, one which .brought me to near death and also brought me to the world of blogging.

Sept 06- Was definetly going to Qatar, after my Cancer scare, and so i left mid-sept, not sure exactly when I will be back, and with a lot of questions and not many answers..it was a tough time, being in that enviorment and with people who I would not normally hang out with.

Oct 06- My family came to Qatar for eid+i started to enjoy myself properly now in Qatar and begin to love it, though i did get into a few car accidents. It was mine and Shams bday, and our first ones apart, this was probably one of the hardest things of during my whole year, as I value birthdays so highly so it was hard for me to accept this.

Nov 06- Saw me move apartments in Doha, and come back to the UK for some training, and meant i could see my family and Shamina again, which was awesome!i started to spend alot of time in the evenings with the local people in my area, smoking, playing backgamon, and watchin football, and it was nice to be making new friends and not some of the abnoxious people that i had met so far.

Dec 06- Move apartments again, hopefully for the last time as it was a night mare moving!i came back to the UK, and i got a new flat mate that masallah I get on well with iA it continues... I also went to Brussles with Shamina, and it was so lovely, very french though, but the amount of choclate on offer was unbeliveable, and the waffles, how people arent fat over there amazes me!


Now over the last year, as you can tell quite a lot of things have happened to me, im not sure if its more than others or less, i guess its all relative, however for me the situations i have been and the consequences of these situations has not only changed my outlook but i feel has made me grow.

There is so much more to life than money, and i think you only realise that when your earning good money ironically, and i realise by being away from ym family and Shamina, that once iA everything is ok on the marriage front I would like to bring everything together.

I have tried to beocme more relgious, however as ssoon as i come back to the UK i become less relgious which is quite annoying but hopefully again once i have a better structure in my life, than it wont be the case.

I have become more concious of my spending and my future, though i still spend like a bitch, i do try to conserve and forward plan alot more but unlike in the pas where i would pan out the next 10 years of my life to the minute detail, now i plan for the next 2 years at a max, and even less at times, but that is so i can develop a understanding of what Im looking for in my life, and focus my life better, obviously with all plans, their there to fail, but that is why i always had flexibility, theres a strong relationship where u have to plan for the future whilst enjoying today, i dont know if i have mastered it myself, but i think once i do then i will become a lot more happier!

Overall this year, has taught me what it means to be in love, i mean i know its going to sound cheesy, but its true, i have been with Shamina for over 2 and a half years now, and we have spent almost every wakin minute in some sort of contact with each in that time, we have lasted the thousand of miles between us, we have found ways for our relationship to adapt, and though its not been plain sailing, (what is?) I have to say that i would not change a minute of it, I have thought in the past I knew what love was, but I was clearly mistaken, as this year has shown otherwise, and it means that I can go into this new year full of hope and promise that this year my relationship with Shamina will be lawful in the eyes of Allah and my family and friends...iA...

Take care and have a happy new year

Asif

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

ameen ameen