Now thats what I call Qatar 27: Metrosexualism

Dear All,

I have bee run off my feet lately not so much with work but with worry and stress, I am being evicted of mi casa, as all employees in Bechtel are being forced out, due to some Syrian bloke taking the money from Bechtel and other companies and running off with it (supposedly to UAE) meaning that we employees are caught in the middle and have to move to a new place which is quite far from my current place and really far from work so it really sucks, only plus side is I heard its got a wicked TV!

I'm so tired at the moment, its hard to sleep when you have so much going on, the only time u manage to sleep is when your body tells u ur going2sleep,it can b anytime, anywhere but my body justs shuts down fora minute or two, im sure that's not healthy but wot is for me?I live such a unhealthy style its quite sicking to be honest and shameful, its not only I need to eat healthy, or the fact I do no exercise its the shisha...its killing me...I been going to a shisha cafe bout 4 times a week, its really cheap like 1.50GBP for shisha,mint tea and water. So why the hell not, well maybe cuz of my lungs, because I get out of breath at the slightest thing, im accelerating my descent into old-age and the worst thing is I only have myself to blame.....

Well talking about blame, often people ask me how do I feel leaving Shamina alone in the UK whilst I go swanning off in another country 'living the life' (I have no idea where people get that from because as you can tell from these entries its far from it) ...the thing not many people realise is, though there are many commercial benefits to being out here, and I can imagine if you been working all day and your stuck on a packed tube after walking 5 minutes in the freezing wet weather , this place must seem like a dream however the social side here makes u really re-evaluate what you hold important to yourself. I mean though I have friends here, and I know some of them will be reading this, I don't mean it as a diss, but its just sometimes not the same as in England, its not that im homesick, because I got over that a long time ago, its more im realising just how English I am, and how proud I am to be, and that really is where my home is.

Its not the case im lonely, as I actually really like time on my own or with small groups (im not a big group kinda person unless I know EVERY1 or at least 90% of the people) and that's the case here, but its the people that matter the people I have grown with, who are absent from this part of my life, who don't see this part of my growth, and I know im growing and becoming more accountable for myself, but the ones that matter to me aren't seeing it, which upsets me. I know if Shamina or my family or friends came, I would crave time alone, and that's just Human nature, to wan something you don't have, so that's not what Im saying exactly, what I want is people to who know me and understand to 'live da life' with me. Its like travelling on your own, though I love being able to do as I please and when I please, the fact u cant share those moments is always something that makes me re-think travelling on my own and so this new year I wont be going anywhere on my own but travelling back to the UK and whilst im there im going to Amsterdam and Brussels with Shamina, so though im not going anywhere exotic im going with someone I can share the experience and to me right now that means more...


Ok I know this edition as seemed rather metro-sexual in parts and im going to put it down to moving stress and fatigue, rather than any personal character trait....

Anyway take care

Asif 'Metrosexual' Mahmood