Mixed feelings

Dear All,

Its been a while and I appolgize to all 262 of my readers but as you can tell from the title of the blog i have had some intresting experiences which ull read about...

Well Hong Kong, was truly incredible as was the whole trip, the kids are so cute in China, there very willing to learn and really want in integrate which is a refereshing change from the youths in England.

Hong Kong is as modern as most people expect yet there is a lot of proverty amonst the Cantonese there, and you can tell in many ways that it used to be western ‘owned’ and like I said in my previous post I love the fact its left hand drive!!

Oh before I forget I want to thank whomever left the last message in my previous post, it was an inspiring message!

Well since getting back I stayed in London, at James and Rehanna’s at first, then at Shamil’s and then at Bilal et the Cambridge crew and I thank them all for letting me stay even though I had to move my heavy ass luggage (I was over 25kg overweight on my flight back to London, on a side note which I was also upgraded to World Traveller Plus on BA and it was much appreciated for the 14hour flight!)

I am currently residing in the Ghetto of Knutsford some say the Harlem of the UK and after my daily mercing of sum next manz I been spending time with the family and especially my nephew, Rayan, whom is the cutest guy in the world!

I been preparing myself for my departure for Qatar, its been quite hectic as I been going to Harley St fairly frequently for my medical and I’m about to tell you something that I been thinking of weather I should or shouldn’t announce it to all of you in such an impersonal manner and even if I want all of you to know about my personal life, but then I think of the whole point of this blog is so people learn about me and even some personal things, well I failed my original medical because the doctor found a lump, this was quite a while ago, but I have kept it quiet from everyone including my family, it made me really think about life and what-ifs, all the things I considered important all of sudden seemed so trivial, such as my job, my graduation, the whole Qatar thing, it made me think a lot more about religion and heaven and hell, for those of you whom are not religious I do wonder if you found out that you may or may not have cancer then would you think about afterlife or think of live for now before your six feet under.
Well after the first meeting I have had subsequent meetings with Cancer specialists, I think there called Urologists but don’t old me to that as I do have the unfortunate situation of having dyslexia as well!

Well after further tests it is determined I have benign Cancer, so its not dangerous and will hopefully be removed in the near future but I should be allowed to go to Qatar, and though it would be foolish of me wanting cancer it gave me reason that I couldn’t go to Qatar, as I am incredibly nervous about it and leaving everyone behind.

Added to this I have been speaking to my parents about Marriage to Shamina, and it is causing a no-end of arguments within my family and myself, I have realised how hard love and family is, and deciding what you really want It also puts great-strain on myself and even my friends, I don’t see how it is going to be concluded yet but lets all hope in a happy ending, I know its going to be hard especially with me going to Qatar but hopefully it will be worked out and thank you for all those whom have supported me recently in my struggle and thank you Shamina for standing by me in all of this.

Now onto nicer things…

Well whilst writing this I been watching Veronica Mars, for those whom don’t know it, its this kinda new US show about a teenage girl whom is also a kinda Priviate Investigator its an ok show, for me its really good because I like mysteries, but I would recommend checking it out if you have time! Also Prison Break has started again and Entourage which are 2 of the best programs out there at the moment and I think appeals to the masses so u shud definitely check it out, and there is plenty of eye candy for both sexes!!

Aneway I best go sleep its well late, and Veronica and I are getting tired hopefully Shamina understands….

Take care

Asif