Around the world in 18 months!

I have starting writing a post then just scrapped it a number of times over the last few weeks, I guess it’s a reflection of my feelings where I feel something then I try to rid myself of that feeling, then I feel something different or the same feeling again, im going through something I never been through before. I have broken up with a partner before, and I haven’t just broken up with someone or anything, but the girl I was thinking of marrying could be and inshallah will marry someone else. The reason for my choice of word inshallah, is that I want her to be happy and with Gods will see will be.



Its often said that if you truly love something then you will want the best for that person even if that persons future lies away from you, I used to think bollocks that’s only in fairly tales, and I still do as its so freaking hard to have such a self-less feeling, its so natural to look out for yourself and want the best for yourself, but you need to fight that urge and that desire and try to do what is better for everyone including the person you care for. I know in my heart how I feel and that’s all that should matter, someone once told me that to love and not be loved back (like a unrelenqeshed love) is like being a Shaheed (a term which has become quite famous in the west for what suicide bombers wish to be ie a martyr for God) and it really does hurt but to know that God understands the pain makes it a lot better, after all for me Islam is a way of life, and its just like go to mosque and pray then forget about it, it affects all aspects of my life and for the kinda guy I am even more so in the love and matters of the heart!



During the last few weeks I have had a lot going on in my life, I had my GMAT exam, where I got a score of 560 which isn’t the best, and I surprisingly f’ed up in the maths part, where I got like 38% ! I know ! for those who know me well, will know maths has always kinda been my strong side so to f’up in it, was shocking and the thing was during the test I knew I was f’ing up and I didn’t know what to do, I was jus like no way is this happening! Anyway by some miracle of God, the English part saved me where I got 69% and in the essay part 80% (but that doesn’t go to my score unfortunately) anyway my score is just about enough for Manchester Uni which is the place I want to go to but I still need to do a heft application form, however I think im going to re-do the test and hope inshallah to get a better score for myself and just to make the application state a bit easier.



I also been really busy planning my holidays as I have been making many personal goals in my life, and as such one of them is to see the remaining 7 wonders of the world that I haven’t seen by 1st January 2010! This has resulted in a hectic travel plan over the next 18 months, I will in addition to the 7 wonders aim to hit 30 cities in the world that I want to see, so far from now til 1st January 2009 I have planned, Madrid, Barcelona, Ibiza, Cairo, New York, Washington, Philidelphia, Boston, Mumbai, Agra, Jaipur, Delhi, Tehran and Kuala Lumpa. However this list includes cities I been to before, but I loved so wanted to re-visit, and it only includes 2 cities (Agra and Cairo) which has the wonders of the world, therefore along with the Great Wall and Petra I would have done all of the wonders that are in the eastern side of the world. The remaining 3 all in central and south America will inshallah be visited next year as I plan 2 trips, one trip to south America, and one trip to central America and west cost USA. I also want to visit Austraila at some point as well as new Zealand, however im thinking of possibly doing that as part of a honeymoon thing, or maybe I should go Africa for a honeymoon thing, I don’t know however I made this as one of my targets over the next few months to organize and inshallah plan to visit the 30 cities and see the 7 wonders by 2010!



Aneway I best go and get on with my life until next time!



Take care