Now that's what I call Qatar 39: Shell Sham

Yo yo yo...

Well had my second game for team Bechtel, and we won 4-2 against Shell. So as a team it was a good game and a good result, however my personally, i had a game i would rather forget about, I came on as a sub at half time, and while i was sitting out, it made me think about professionals and how, when you see your not a starting and ur sitting on the pitch, obviously u want to win, however you also want to prove to people that u r good enough to be in the starting XI so u dont wanna see a perfect display whilst ur not on, unless ur confident of ur place on the team, i know its quite selfish but i think its partial human instinct, or more likely my own selfish nature!! However when i did come on, i wish i hadnt, i was put in at left back, and i thought midfield you need stamina,bloody hell, a wing back, needs bags of it! Also Im not left footed and found it really hard to be playing with a right foot on the left hand side, as my natural instinct would be to go towards the centre, and therefore lots of balls that went to the left of me, would go past me, after playing 3/4 or so of the second half I was subbed, to end my nightmare and any possiblity of me getting a starting XI place next week.

Well i havent really spoken much about my relationship with Shamina for a long time, well things between us r ok, when i went back we had a awesome time, and was just like I was back at uni except we had money to burn! We did so much in jus over a week it felt like a month, however now its been almost a month, and its felt like a year since I saw her...Distance really plays on a relationship, i have spoken bout it before, and even though i will be back soon, its jus hard, especially when that person u depend on. Its odd because when im actually da in the UK i dont realise how much I need her, or my friends or family, but when im gone i realise, and its hard to take, as its such a difference. However saying that, when im there, because of my argumentative nature, I will argue even more than normal with Shamina and my family jus to make up for lost time!lol

My parents are starting to really put their feet in, and im really starting to push for the marriage, as I want to be engaged this summer, it means ill be engaged at the age of 23, which for most people is considered to be too young, however I dont think it is, and i think its much dependant on the type of person you are, and if your ready for that kind of commitment. By coming here people thought maybe me and Shamina wouldnt last, it would break, however for me, its made me realise that when im alone, there is so much i want to share with her, its like the whole traveling alone thing i have touched on in the past, and hows its not fun on ur own, and u need to share it with someone, this has made me more commiteed to the cause, however my new found commitment means, my parents have become even more resilant to the idea...

Its not getting any easier, and im certainly in it for the long-haul, however jus how long it will continue I dont know, and neither does my family or Shamina. I was thinking about it recently from my parents point of view, they dont want something for their son, and will try to influence their choice by saying no, and I put myself into their shoes and see what would i do, would I be like cuz i said no, or would I try to explain to my son, and if he still didnt agree would i accept his decision. I dont know if i would to be honest, i mean im quite pig-stubborn, however I do think also im quite a logical fella, and think that if i couldnt persude my parents then there must be a reason why they feel so strongly and if they are of the right age, then accept their choice and give my blessings. Now what is the right age, well is it 16 o 18 like English law, or is it 21 or when you graduate? it is 5 years after u started working, i dont know if there is a right age, if my 23 year old son wanted to get married, I would accept it but if i disagreed with his choice, i would only agree to partly fund the wedding, if my parents gave me that option i would jump at it, but maybe thats just wishful thinkin!!

Aneway expect a monthy or at the very least once every 2 months a update on me and Sham...after all after Relgion there is only love that matters to me(and money$$$$)

take care

Asif